Start things with end in mind

I'm not an angel, nor a saint. I'm full of flaws and mistakes. Allah loves those who repent rather than an arrogant believer. Thus, beg for His forgiveness. He is the Most Kind more than our mother or any mankind. Do not show off and be proud of our sins. Do not lose hope in Allah Al-Ghaffur The believers should be happy, because we believe in hereafter. Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful." (39:53) LHS 29th August 2017 Delta Essence

Permulaan usrah, ana mulakan dengan kupasan Surah Hud ayat 112 dengan adik usrah, 112. Oleh itu, hendaklah engkau (wahai Muhammad) sentiasa tetap teguh di atas jalan yang betul sebagaimana yang diperintahkan kepadamu, dan hendaklah orang-orang yang rujuk kembali kepada kebenaran mengikutmu berbuat demikian dan janganlah kamu melampaui batas hukum-hukum Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Melihat akan apa yang kamu kerjakan. Rasulullah SAW apabila mendapat wahyu ayat ini, sampai beruban rambut Baginda kerana betapa beratnya suruhan ayat ini iaitu; ISTIQOMAH ! Istiqomah bermaksud kita melakukan sesuatu secara berterusan. Adakah istiqomah susah? Ya, sangat susah. Sebab iman kita ni yazid wa yankus, turun dan naik.  Bila iman tengah tinggi, MasyaAllah, semua solat sunat kita nak buat. Solat fardhu pun tertunggu-tunggu azan di tikar sejadah. Time iman tinggi lah, kita rasa rajin nak ke surau solat berjemaah. 50 meter surau dari rumah rasa macam sebelah rumah je, tapi ...

*True story* Background music: It all started when I performed my umrah last Ramadhan last year. I felt a loss if I didn't make a specific doa about jodoh, seiring dengan doa-doa yang lain, duniawi wa ukhrawi. So I prayed for this one man that I respect and admire. If I define him, I would say: PURENESS IN DARKNESS. Long story short, I include his name in my dua after my prayers. And I intend to request him through UBM (baitul muslim, guna orang tengah). A friend of mine inspire me by saying, kita boleh memilih, dipilih atau terpilih. So hey, lets memilih, (entry ni pasal love kan, so kita cite pasal benda ni je k ;p) 10 month after my umrah, I don't know how, I got the strength to actually isi the borang and stuff, bagitau ke orang tengah. I cried a lot that day, not knowing is this feeling, nafsu or seru. Haha. A month later, I got his answer from orang tengah. He decline. (He won't know siapa yang request). At first I felt relieve, no regrets because I alr...

Baru letak pen, selesai menjawab exam wanita & fiqh sirah, ada sahabat datang duduk sebelah, "Macam mana akak menguruskan masa? Belajar master, kerja full time, kerja part time lagi. Amik APSA lagi. Nisa' Malaysia lagi. Saya ni amik APSA je dan kerja. Habis APSA baru saya sambung degree saya. Macamana akak bahagikan masa?"  **APSA= Akademi Pengajian Saidatina Aisyah. Kelas agama formal. *Ting* Masuk whatsapp; "Macam mana enti serap pressure?" Ya Allah. How come people jumpa saya terfikir nak tanya soalan macam ni ea? Ada yang siap whatsapp tanya. Saya bukanlah sesiapa yang hebat untuk dijadikan rujukan. Rasa terkedu sikit orang tanya soalan macam tu, sebab macam orang pandang tinggi ke kita. People look up to you. Pressure kan?  Walhal, I am just a human being full with flaws. For Me:  I'm just living my life.  I do things that  I want to do .  Mungkin aku ni tamak sikit, nak belajar, nak cari duit & pengalaman kerja jugak, nak mengajar...