Start things with end in mind

*True story* Background music: It all started when I performed my umrah last Ramadhan last year. I felt a loss if I didn't make a specific doa about jodoh, seiring dengan doa-doa yang lain, duniawi wa ukhrawi. So I prayed for this one man that I respect and admire. If I define him, I would say: PURENESS IN DARKNESS. Long story short, I include his name in my dua after my prayers. And I intend to request him through UBM (baitul muslim, guna orang tengah). A friend of mine inspire me by saying, kita boleh memilih, dipilih atau terpilih. So hey, lets memilih, (entry ni pasal love kan, so kita cite pasal benda ni je k ;p) 10 month after my umrah, I don't know how, I got the strength to actually isi the borang and stuff, bagitau ke orang tengah. I cried a lot that day, not knowing is this feeling, nafsu or seru. Haha. A month later, I got his answer from orang tengah. He decline. (He won't know siapa yang request). At first I felt relieve, no regrets because I alr...

Baru letak pen, selesai menjawab exam wanita & fiqh sirah, ada sahabat datang duduk sebelah, "Macam mana akak menguruskan masa? Belajar master, kerja full time, kerja part time lagi. Amik APSA lagi. Nisa' Malaysia lagi. Saya ni amik APSA je dan kerja. Habis APSA baru saya sambung degree saya. Macamana akak bahagikan masa?"  **APSA= Akademi Pengajian Saidatina Aisyah. Kelas agama formal. *Ting* Masuk whatsapp; "Macam mana enti serap pressure?" Ya Allah. How come people jumpa saya terfikir nak tanya soalan macam ni ea? Ada yang siap whatsapp tanya. Saya bukanlah sesiapa yang hebat untuk dijadikan rujukan. Rasa terkedu sikit orang tanya soalan macam tu, sebab macam orang pandang tinggi ke kita. People look up to you. Pressure kan?  Walhal, I am just a human being full with flaws. For Me:  I'm just living my life.  I do things that  I want to do .  Mungkin aku ni tamak sikit, nak belajar, nak cari duit & pengalaman kerja jugak, nak mengajar...

With the name of Allah the most Gracious and the most Merciful. Unstable emotion. The sky is falling down. Down ~ down~ Seriously. Yeah, as a leader, it requires endurance, patience, and most important to be professional. Not emotional. But having group members that is close to you could be a little troublesome when they starts demand things and do not do the things you ask them to do. Obviously I’m not a good leader. Then I started to fall into pieces (T.T) because I don’t think I’m a good leader.                                                                                   ...

In the name of Allah the most Gracious and the most Merciful. Task usrah untuk minggu ni yang naqibah saya bagi (kakak atie tercinta ^^ ), cari sirah sorang tokoh. So saya pon merayau-rayau lah di internet. Ketuk pintu website ini, website itu. Hehe. Someone that I really wanna know more is Imam Hasan Al-basri. Al-Hasan Al-Basri was a wise, eloquent man whose words were just like pearls. For example, he said: " Son of Adam, you are no more than a few days. Whenever a day passes, a part of you has gone ." Nama penuh: Abu Sa’id al-Hasan ibn Abi-l-Hasan Yasar al-Basri Tarikh lahir: 21 Hijrah (642 Masihi) ; pada masa pemerintahan Khalifah Umar al-Khattab Tempat lahir: Madinah Wafat: 5 Rejab 110 Hijrah (728 Masihi) , pada usia 89 tahun, di Basrah Iraq. Kedua ibu bapanya adalah hamba. Ayahnya menjadi tawanan perang apabila Islam menakluk Misan (an area between Basrah dan Wasit di Iraq). Ayahnya memeluk agama Islam dan seterusnya tinggal di Madinah di mana dia ...

Assalamualaikum. Que tal? Buenas tardes. Ops, sepanyol la pulak ^^ Wow. 7 hari lagi sebelum result SPM keluar! Wohoo. Berdebar tak berdebar tak? Haha. My lil bro is! Huhu, berusaha, doa, tawakal. If possible, buat solat hajat agar dapat terima result tu dengan redha. Maybe if you even get 10A+ and 1B, that could make you cry all day but to whom get lesser could be happy cause they know they’d tried their best and that result is the best for them. Here I just wanna to share a little bit of my journey entering university! Before that, remember this, SPM result is just a ticket for you to enter tertiary education! After you’ve been accepted, starting back from zero! My dream is to study oversea. I applied a lot of scholarship. But with the result I got, of course all of them turn me down. I only got 5A and 6B.   It didn’t shock me actually. Cause back then, I was extremely lazy! Haha. In my mind was just Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah. Thank God! Then I’ve ...

“I won’t be impatient. I won’t be greedy. I won’t give up. Because everyone takes things step by step. I’m not the only one in pain. Not having other people understand. Not understand others. Both of those are awful. My life is like a blossoming flower. I want to have no regrets and treasure it. This disease, why did it choose me? Fate. It can’t be put in words. You really can’t make people to accept it. I want to accept the me right now. And LIVE ON. Eventhough I will also be hurt by those heartless glances, but, I understand that at the same time gentle glances exist. What’s wrong with falling down? Because as long as I stand up again it’ll be just fine. If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky, is also today, stretching limitlessly and smile at me. “ :: Aya Kito::   Have u ever watched a japanesse drama – One Litre of Tears or リ...